"romanticising eating disorders" doesn’t have to be as blatant as that thinspo picture with "do you want cake or a thigh gap?" or mile wide black and white gaps thigh gaps in skinny jeans.
it can be that “#tbt! missing summer!” picture of you that you know is from the height…
NOT EVERYONE WITH AN EATING DISORDER HAS FASTED
NOT EVERYONE WITH AN EATING DISORDER HAS SKIPPED MEALS
NOT EVERYONE WITH AN EATING DISORDER HAS COUNTED CALORIES
NOT EVERYONE WITH AN EATING DISORDER HAS PURGED
NOT EVERYONE WITH AN EATING DISORDER HAS OVEREXERCISED
NOT EVERYONE WITH AN EATING…
Anonymous asked: What is anorexia nervosa ?
According to the NHS:
Anorexia nervosa is an eating disorder and mental health condition that can be life-threatening.
People with anorexia try to keep their weight as low as possible, usually by restricting the amount of food they eat. They often have a distorted image of themselves, thinking that they’re fat when they’re not.
Some people with the condition also exercise excessively, and some eat a lot of food in a short space of time (binge eating) and then make themselves sick or use laxatives (purging).
People affected by anorexia often go to great attempts to hide their behaviour from family and friends by lying about eating and what they have eaten, or by pretending to have eaten earlier.
Today I was taught that my ideal body weight is 20 pounds less than what I weigh
and had some arm fat squeezed only to be told that my BMI should be significantly lower.
Did I mention that we learned about eating disorders the week before?
After learning the signs, symptoms, and ways to eliminate anorexia and bulimia,
we were shown a video.
Seventeen picture of anorexic girls and a toothbrush down a throat later,
I found myself in the bathroom vomiting unwillingly for the first time in six months.
But this is not a poem about me or some vomit in a shitty school bathroom.
This is a poem about the way schools poorly teach eating disorders.
As I watched the anorexic and bulimic girls on the classroom TV
I saw not one boy or one person who weighed more than 100 pounds.
I am tired of being left out of the subculture of people who have struggled with eating disorders
I weigh 135 pounds.
Why am I not taught that over 10% of anorexics are boys?
If I am going to be accurately taught:
How to prove overlapping triangles congruent
When and why semicolons are used
How the holocaust affected Europe
and the chemicals that plants absorb
I sure as hell better be taught that
20 million woman and 10 million men suffer from eating disorders just in America a year.
It better become known to all 1,723 kids in my school that only 10% of people struggling with eating disorders actually receive some type of help.
Odds are you don’t know that
33% of boys admit to starving themselves in order to lose weight.
Odds are you don’t know that because health classes only show
the stereotypical anorexic girl who is white and does ballet.
Things are changing and so should health class curriculums.
I am tired of hearing my classmates call a petite girl anorexic or bulimic when body size and shape has nothing to do with having anorexia or bulimia.
Schools need to teach that these disorders are more than something that Hollywood stars turn to to lose weight,
These are diseases that take over the mind.
But until schools make that clear,
I am stuck watching videos of anorexic ballerinas with ribs more visible than the beauty that they once had.
It just really fucking bothers me when I think about the fact that I am literally so preoccupied with food and weight and numbers and fat and calories and everything about that while most people DON’T EVEN NOTICE. My world REVOLVES around this shit and some people could not care less. Like I don’t even know what normal people think about or like to do or anything because my brain cannot comprehend anything else.
Anonymous asked: Hey how do I start to recover from an anorexic mindset? :(
Imagine yourself in 50 years, if you’re even lucky enough to make it that long.
Your grandchildren are playing in your backyard. They’re asking you to come out and play with them, but you’re too weak and tired.
Your son asks you to meet his new girlfriend, but you keep making excuses because you are too ugly, too fat and she will judge you.
Your marriage is slowly falling apart because you’re too detached and (s)he is sick of trying.
Imagine yourself in 30 years, if you’re even lucky enough to make it that long.
You’re on your way to the grocery store to get your safe foods.
All you see is numbers, fat, protein, sugar, carbs, too much, too this, too that. You end up getting exactly the same things you always get.
Your partner comes home from work and kisses you on your forehead. (S)he no longer kisses you on your mouth because your breath smells like death, and it’s too much for them to bear.
Your kids are always asking you to do things with them, but you don’t have time because you have to plan your food or exercise.
Imagine yourself in 10 years, if you’re even lucky enough to make it that long.
You’re done with school, and you tell yourself that now is the time for change. And as you say those words your stomach rumbles, and you start the new you by eating a rice cake.
Your friends(the few that are left) are asking you to go out with them, but you’re too busy, something family related has happened, you don’t feel well.
You spend every day looking at recipes that you will never get to taste. You go into bakeries and bakery sections in grocery stores just to look at the food, but you never buy anything.
Imagine yourself in a year, if you’re even lucky enough to make it that long.
You are sick and tired of being sick and tired, but there’s nothing you can do.
You have given up, and you feel everyone else giving up on you too, but you don’t blame them.
Everyone else is moving on, but you’re stuck feeling miserable and lonely.
Every day is a struggle, and you can’t seem to find the light.
Imagine yourself tomorrow.
You have the power to create your future.
Start with tomorrow, or even better, start today.
You have a life to live, but if you don’t choose recovery, you will never know just how beautiful and exciting that life could be.
You have been fighting to hold on to your eating disorder.
Now is the time to fight to let go.
I have reblogged this many times but I will continue to reblog each time I see it on my dash because this beautiful strong girl inspires so many & her words deserve to be spread accross the globe as I know so many will be touched by her wisdom.
Let me just say, just because you eat healthily and work out doesn’t necessarily mean you ARE healthy
Being afraid of sugar, a piece of cake, or anything not clean is not “healthy”
Being pissed and anxious and upset and mad at yourself for missing one day of working out is not “healthy”
Your entire life revolving around food, exercising and being healthy is not “healthy”
Just putting that out there
Pain is not pretty.
Some people make it seem
Let me tell you
There is nothing desirable
About a mental disorder.
Counting and recounting numbers, meticulously accounting for every little thing
You put in your body.
But it will always be too much.
Spending your days
Choking and gagging,
Tears streaming down your puffy face,
All for some disgusting relief
That your dinner lay somewhere
Other than your stomach.
But yet, you still feel huge.
All over something
That your body needs to survive.
Because that’s not something you want to do anymore.
It’s not for vanity, I never starved or purged because I thought it would somehow make me beautiful.
Pinching and grabbing at the excess you see
In a terrifying reflection
Through distorted, lifeless eyes.
It’s a nightmare,
It’s an eating disorder.
And it takes control
Of your entire life
And every single thing you do.
—The Not Glamorous Truth of a Not Glamorous Disease (via n-ullibicity)